weakdave
Why am I more aware of You in nature?
Jesus, I want to be overwhelmed by You and Your worthiness, rather than always being so consumed with me and my worthiness. It’s strange to me, Lord, that I’m not at all critical-judgmental of nature, created and supervised by You, but am easily critical-judgmental of us humans and our creations, also created and supervised by You. Thank You for how helpful it is for me to see nature and humans and our creations, all created and supervised by the same Person, and how-much happier I am when you draw my focus to You and Your worthiness, instead of me and mine. I love it when I see everything and everyone under your guidance, just like in nature. Thank You for creating me such a great example of a bad example of a contented Jesus-follower, even though my flesh HATES me being a failure/loser. And thank You for Your grace in opening my eyes to see the TRUTH about me and my ongoing neediness for a Savior, and opening my eyes to see the TRUTH about You, others, and Your genius plan, Your Grand Story that You are unfolding in human history. I am taken back today by Your exposure of my extreme self-absorption all day every day. My life is all about me and my performance/worthiness — even when I’m loving another really well by the standards of this world, because it’s the right thing to do and it makes me feel good to do right, be right, lay down my life for another, and the only time my focus shifts to You and Your performance/worthiness — evidenced in the beauty of Your Creation, is when You lovingly send Your spirit to open my eyes to see the problem of my self-absorption, freshly convicting me of my sin of INdependence/worldliness/pride/confidence-I-know-what’s-best, and my dissatisfaction with You and Your imputed worthiness, wanting some of my own.
— Dave McCarty, GospelFriendships, championing Gospel-awareness, self-awareness, and sovereignty-awareness, in the hopes that Christians might become compelling to seculars
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