This grace-junkie is a fraud.
I like to think that Jesus is the big deal in my life, but now I’m seeing that He’s not. The big deal in my life is feeling superior to others, especially try-harder believers — those who are clueless as to how pharisaical they are, blind to their legalism, blind to their superficial understanding of the Gospel, blind to how poorly they follow Jesus, imitate His life, blind to their hypocrisy and how it impacts nonbelievers around them. That I can see what they can’t see doesn’t make me superior to them, but it does make me FEEL superior to them. Because Jesus ain’t the big deal to me I’d like to think He is. ME is the big deal to me, not Jesus. MY superiority, not His. I’m even worse than the legalists — more prideful, more self-deceived, more pharisaical/hypocritical, more pathetic. Thankfully, grace is for sinners, so I qualify for His grace, and am deeply grateful for it, but only when I’ve been freshly convicted of my competitive spirit, pride.
ShepherdDave, who loves feeling superior, to legalists, other grace-junkies, anyone and everyone
To receive my weekly updates, email me, or subscribe to my blog: dumbsheepdave.com