is also judging myself. Impossible to judge others without judging myself. Conditional love to others, always means conditional love to ME. When I don’t perform up to expectations, the failure/self-contempt weirds me. Strengthens my suppressed emotional commitment to avoid the pain of failure at all costs, which strengthens my performance idol, which strengthens the conditionality of my love for self and others, and I grow to be a monster on the inside, while working hard to look harmless and normal on the outside, to others and to myself. Joyless, peaceless existence. Intense. Hyper-competitive.
–SuperiorDave, everyone’s critic, tortured soul, but mostly clueless as to his misery, needing fresh conviction of the sin of dissatisfaction with Jesus and His imputed worthiness, so he’s momentarily DumbSheepDave, experiencing the bliss of Jesus-dependency/humility, so the pre-believers around him might want to experience Jesus
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