My great desire,
is to be DumbSheepDave all the time. I’m happiest when I’m DumbSheepDave. Life is so much easier as DumbSheepDave. But when I’m DumbSheepDave, I’m surprisingly willing to be ShepherdDave, surrendered to that worst-case scenario, for Jesus’ purposes to be fulfilled. Not my will be done, Lord, but Yours. Whatever it takes in my life for Your Story to be written in me and through me. I desire easy, dependency — asking, thanking, being curious/expectant about what You do next, in me, others, circumstances. But if Your Story involves me being ShepherdDave way more than DumbSheepDave, for now, then so be it. I surrender to being ShepherdDave more than DumbSheepDave. To more independence than dependence. More stress than peace. More willfulness than surrender. More impatience than patience. More hurried than unhurried. More confidence-I-know-what’s-best than cluelessness-I-know-what’s-best. More uptight than relaxed. More miserable than happy. More fruitlessness with nonbelievers than fruit. More selfishness than selflessness. More judging others than enjoying others. More self-contempt than self-acceptance. More pride than humility. More worldliness than godliness. Whatever it takes, Lord, for Your purposes to be fulfilled, that’s my greatest desire.
–DumbSheepDave, for the moment
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