Independents are always self-deceived.
Whenever I’m functioning as ShepherdDave/IndependentDave, I am self-deceived about my faulty wisdom, faulty understanding, my need to be rescued from myself by my ShepherdJesus. I think I know good from bad choices so I don’t ask Him, and I think I know what’s thankable and what’s not, so I don’t thank him, for the harrrd. And I rarely even thank Him when things go my way. Leaning on my own understanding, wise in my own eyes, I’m a danger to myself and others. A created-dependent is a fool when trying to be independent, endures unnecessary stress, lives in a prison where he only experiences joy and peace when things go his way. Momentarily. Orphanlike. Weight of the world on his shoulders. Alone.
That’s when I’m self-deceived about my plight, my need to be rescued. The Christian life seems doable, possible. I can handle this. Ought to be able to handle it. Ought to be able to make my life work. Ought to be able to engineer happiness for myself and those I love. Just do it.
A fool left to his own devices. Willful, agendafied, confident, fleshly, controlling. Like a caterpillar in a ring of fire — doomed, unless I’m rescued from Above.
–DumbSheepDave, happiest when he’s been freshly convicted of the sin of independence, hoping the pre-believers around him are noticing the difference his ShepherdJesus is making in 2013
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