How does Jesus retrain me,
in a better way to live — more Jesus-dependent? By thwarting my agenda.
My agenda for sleep, optimal health, controlling my circumstances, reaching goals, fixing things, getting places rapidly and efficiently. Independence/self-reliance. Lovingly thwarting my agenda. ShepherdDave thinks a loving God should bless his agenda. Just the opposite, oftentimes. Jesus made me for dependency, and I’m happiest when I’m DumbSheepDave, asking, thanking, curious, expectant, to see what my ShepherdJesus does next. Kinda like playing a video game where I respond to whatever comes next, instead of feeling the need to design the video game. Ahhhh, tis so sweet to be DumbSheepDave, trusting in his Sheperd’s perfect plan for him.
–ShepherdDave, needing prayer for the Spirit to freshly convict him of the sin of independence — being unsatisfied with Jesus and His performance, so he comes running back to Jesus, and dependency, so the pre-believers around him are wowed by the difference his ShepherdJesus makes in his life (please pray now)