Does my bride feel enjoyed by me,
just as she is, or does she feel a subtle demand from me? Does she enjoy my unsolicited attempts to disciple her, point her to Jesus, fix her, judge her in need of something more, especially when she’s struggling? Do I enjoy myself, just as I am, or do I feel a subtle demand from myself, to be different, better? Do others around me feel enjoyed by me, just as they are, or do they feel a fixit agenda? Do they enjoy being discipled/mentored/fixed/judged/corrected by me? Some do. Others?
I’m happiest when I have no fixit agenda, for others or self, unless I’ve asked Him, and He’s led me to speak unsolicited into a life. I’m happiest when I enjoy. Enjoy others, self, just as they are. Enjoy ShepherdJesus and His genius plan for my life, and others’ lives, just as it is. And I suspect others are also happiest around me, when they feel no fixit agenda from me – unless they ask. An enjoyment agenda feels so much better. Which is impossible, unless the Spirit of Jesus has freshly convicted me of my independence, my fixit agenda, my shepherd-like confidence, so that enjoyment is effortless, natural. Even though momentary.
–DumbSheepDave, momentarily enjoying, because of the Shepherd’s Spirit freshly convicting him of the sin of independence/fixit-agenda, wondering if pre-believers and believers will be feeling any difference in 2014
To receive my weekly updates, email me, or subscribe to my blog: dumbsheepdave.com